Today when I left they gym I was wrestling with the fact that I have to work out everyday for the r e s t of my life. Since I want to live a long time, that is a lot of work outs. It suddenly seemed overwhelming. I didn't want to do it anymore.
I ran at my goal pace today. I didn't run that fast for very long, but I actually moved my legs that fast for a bit. I really didn't think I ever could. I was scared to bump the speed up that fast. I held on to the emergency stop cord in case I died or fell or something. But, I did it. It wasn't that bad.
So, why when I left I didn't want to play anymore is really strange to me. Then I decided to check out the Naperville Running Company's facebook page. I found a blog about a guy who started running when he was 350 lbs. You know what, I wanted to go on a run, right then. But, I can't because DCF has all these stupid rules about people watching the kids.
I started running because it was on my can't list. I wanted to take it off my can't list. I did it.
In December, I got some not so good news about my health. I was feeling good and went to the Dr. I wanted to prove that you can be fit and fat... but it didn't work out that way. I learned that one of my cholesterol numbers was out of whack. (My sugar numbers were good, so all you folks who think I am going to get diabetes can bite yourselves.) I have high triglycerides.
The Dr. gave me a choice, loose weight and get your diet under control or take pills. My sister killed herself with pills. Pills killed my father. I don't do pills. (Pills do some great things for a lot of folks, but you can see why I don't want to take them.)
So, I have stopped eating carbs. Ok, I have cut back on carbs. But I ate a bagel the other day and it made me ill. That is progress. I am working out 5-6 days a week and I am seriously thinking about applying for Mom Grant to hire a trainer for a couple of sessions. I want to run a 10K.
But, if I really and truly don't want to do pills, I really have to get my head around the working out and the food. I have to do it forever. There is not finish line, this is an everyday battle.
Tuesday, I am going to lace up my shoes and try and run at the goal pace for a bit longer. But, for a little bit today, I wanted to give up.
I am not going to go all diet blog on you, because that isn't what this is about. It is about being healthy and not taking pills. Periodically, I might share with you what is going on.
I ran at my goal pace today. I didn't run that fast for very long, but I actually moved my legs that fast for a bit. I really didn't think I ever could. I was scared to bump the speed up that fast. I held on to the emergency stop cord in case I died or fell or something. But, I did it. It wasn't that bad.
So, why when I left I didn't want to play anymore is really strange to me. Then I decided to check out the Naperville Running Company's facebook page. I found a blog about a guy who started running when he was 350 lbs. You know what, I wanted to go on a run, right then. But, I can't because DCF has all these stupid rules about people watching the kids.
I started running because it was on my can't list. I wanted to take it off my can't list. I did it.
In December, I got some not so good news about my health. I was feeling good and went to the Dr. I wanted to prove that you can be fit and fat... but it didn't work out that way. I learned that one of my cholesterol numbers was out of whack. (My sugar numbers were good, so all you folks who think I am going to get diabetes can bite yourselves.) I have high triglycerides.
The Dr. gave me a choice, loose weight and get your diet under control or take pills. My sister killed herself with pills. Pills killed my father. I don't do pills. (Pills do some great things for a lot of folks, but you can see why I don't want to take them.)
So, I have stopped eating carbs. Ok, I have cut back on carbs. But I ate a bagel the other day and it made me ill. That is progress. I am working out 5-6 days a week and I am seriously thinking about applying for Mom Grant to hire a trainer for a couple of sessions. I want to run a 10K.
But, if I really and truly don't want to do pills, I really have to get my head around the working out and the food. I have to do it forever. There is not finish line, this is an everyday battle.
Tuesday, I am going to lace up my shoes and try and run at the goal pace for a bit longer. But, for a little bit today, I wanted to give up.
I am not going to go all diet blog on you, because that isn't what this is about. It is about being healthy and not taking pills. Periodically, I might share with you what is going on.
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