Thursday, May 16, 2013

Pain in the ...

This weeks topic is about injuries, and how they can derail your plans.

It is topical for me, and that is why I chose it... See I was out for a light jog.  Just a quick 3 miler to blow the stink off after my 10 miler the day before.  I was feeling good and then all of a sudden I was on my face sliding forward on path, into poop.  Yup, I fell face first into shit.  I can not begin to tell you how awesome that felt. 

But the insult to the injury is that now it looks like I can not do the 10 mile race at the end of the month.  I have been training for quite some time do be able to do this.  I have run up hills and down hills for 8 miles.  I have run in the heat.  I have run when I thought I might puke.  I have run in the cold where I thought my toes might freeze off.  I have run with pneumonia.  Now my ankle is going to sideline me?

I kills me to not be able to do this, but the reality is that I can not run 10 miles with the kind of pain my ankle produces with every step.  My Dr. said I could do it.  That even if it was broken (he thinks it might be) the worst that would happen is that I would break it more and have to have it casted.  If it was sprained as long as I didn't roll my ankle I would be fine.  The only thing he said, was if it hurts a lot, don't run on it.  What he didn't say is that if it is injured enough to make me not be able to run the race, it will be because I can't stand the pain.

After running 4 miles, I couldn't stand the pain.  There was no way in the world I would be able to run 10 miles.  The Dr. was right.  This injury would tell me what to do. 

Now I have to deal with the sadness of not being able to do it.  It isn't cuz I can't run the 10 miles it is because my injury won't allow me.  But, I want to prove to myself and the world, I can run 10 miles.  Now I can't.  I am letting my running partner down.  I am letting myself down.  I am disappointed.

Yes, there will be other races.  Yes, my running partner is cool about it and is already planning my return to 10 miles training schedule.  Yes, I will eventually run the 10.  For now, I am going to curl up in a ball and whimper a little, while I curse my bad luck.

Want to see what the other ladies have to say?  Check them out at:  Froggie, Momarock, and Merrylandgirl

 

3 comments:

  1. That truly sucks Susanna!!! It's good though that you are listening to your body. I've been in your shoes before and know how obnoxious it is to train for something and not be able to do it! You will do it though- I know you will. Next time for sure!

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  2. Sorry it is keeping you from doing what you want, but being able to enjoy your run is important. If you're limping the whole time, what is the point of putting yourself through agony? Hope you heal up soon!

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  3. I was sorry to hear your ankle injury was worse than you first expected and that you won't be able to do your 10 mile run. It's hard to listen to your body when you really want to do something. There are plenty of other 10 milers that are coming up later on in the year. Maybe by then you'll be better. If not, like other have said, next year!

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