First off, I'd like to dedicate my on time post to Merrylandgirl. I recently learned I caused her much stress over the year by being tardy. Oops... but, I will talk more about this in a minute.
Our topic is to talk about the lessons you learned over 2012 and how you will apply them to 2013.
I learned some big lessons and some not so big lessons. One of them was that carbs are evil and that I am addicted. As I am trying to avoid medications and get myself on a more healthy path, I have learned that shaking my addiction to carbs is a lot harder than I would have thought. I am learning to like more veggies. Although I recently learned that some of my favorite veggies are really fruit, but I digress. There are days when I can not make it without my carb pick me up. I find that no matter how hard I try and avoid them, I just can't. I get a little crazy. It really is like a drug addict trying to avoid getting high.
I had an interesting conversation with a friend about my particular addiction to wheat thins. Until I started eliminating carbs, I really couldn't care less about them, now they are like sugar coated crack. She surmised that I must really want the corn syrup. Interesting, because as part of this project, I have inadvertently eliminated corn syrup. No carbs = no processed food = no corn syrup. I am now really careful to avoid corn syrup. Now that I am off it, I find that even the smallest amount sends me on a wheat thin binge.
I can talk more about food, and how changing what I put in my body has changed my life significantly, but I also want to talk about the lesson learned in a bottle of tequila. The lesson itself wasn't new, it was something I had been trying to embrace all year, but it crystallized at my Uncle's house this holiday season. See my basic philosophy is fuck 'em if they can take a joke. It is all about doing the best you can and not worrying about what others think. (I try and post on time, but my life gets the way of my best intentions. I do the best I can, and if other's don't like it? Well, that is sort of not my problem. While I am sorry that I caused undue stress, and will take that in consideration for the future, I can only do what I can do.)
But, back to my Uncle. I stood in his house after being spoken to like the hired help and decided, you know what, I am a grown ass adult, I don't have to do this anymore. I do not have to subject myself to his abuse. I don't have to subject my children to abuse from his grandchildren. I don't have to listen to the grandchildren speak ill of my family. I don't have to do this anymore. I am perfectly comfortable saying this to his face. You and some members of your family have treated me like I am gum on the bottom of your shoe, so guess what we are going to pack up our toys and go home. All I can do is what I can do, and what I can do isn't good enough for this crew, so fuck 'em.
I will spend time with the ones that I like and not bother with the rest. There are some good ones in that group, don't want to throw the baby out with the bath water! The stress that was a big part of the holiday season evaporated. It was like the heavens opened and angels sang.
I will spend my time and energy in places where it is appreciated and respected. I will try and post on time, but I am pretty sure I will fail at this a lot. I will continue to try and not eat carbs, but if you see me hell bent on a box of wheat thins, you might want to move out of the way. I am sure I will learn more things, but you know what, Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke!
What did the other ladies learn? Check them out at: Froggie, Momarock, and Merrylandgirl
Our topic is to talk about the lessons you learned over 2012 and how you will apply them to 2013.
I learned some big lessons and some not so big lessons. One of them was that carbs are evil and that I am addicted. As I am trying to avoid medications and get myself on a more healthy path, I have learned that shaking my addiction to carbs is a lot harder than I would have thought. I am learning to like more veggies. Although I recently learned that some of my favorite veggies are really fruit, but I digress. There are days when I can not make it without my carb pick me up. I find that no matter how hard I try and avoid them, I just can't. I get a little crazy. It really is like a drug addict trying to avoid getting high.
I had an interesting conversation with a friend about my particular addiction to wheat thins. Until I started eliminating carbs, I really couldn't care less about them, now they are like sugar coated crack. She surmised that I must really want the corn syrup. Interesting, because as part of this project, I have inadvertently eliminated corn syrup. No carbs = no processed food = no corn syrup. I am now really careful to avoid corn syrup. Now that I am off it, I find that even the smallest amount sends me on a wheat thin binge.
I can talk more about food, and how changing what I put in my body has changed my life significantly, but I also want to talk about the lesson learned in a bottle of tequila. The lesson itself wasn't new, it was something I had been trying to embrace all year, but it crystallized at my Uncle's house this holiday season. See my basic philosophy is fuck 'em if they can take a joke. It is all about doing the best you can and not worrying about what others think. (I try and post on time, but my life gets the way of my best intentions. I do the best I can, and if other's don't like it? Well, that is sort of not my problem. While I am sorry that I caused undue stress, and will take that in consideration for the future, I can only do what I can do.)
But, back to my Uncle. I stood in his house after being spoken to like the hired help and decided, you know what, I am a grown ass adult, I don't have to do this anymore. I do not have to subject myself to his abuse. I don't have to subject my children to abuse from his grandchildren. I don't have to listen to the grandchildren speak ill of my family. I don't have to do this anymore. I am perfectly comfortable saying this to his face. You and some members of your family have treated me like I am gum on the bottom of your shoe, so guess what we are going to pack up our toys and go home. All I can do is what I can do, and what I can do isn't good enough for this crew, so fuck 'em.
I will spend time with the ones that I like and not bother with the rest. There are some good ones in that group, don't want to throw the baby out with the bath water! The stress that was a big part of the holiday season evaporated. It was like the heavens opened and angels sang.
I will spend my time and energy in places where it is appreciated and respected. I will try and post on time, but I am pretty sure I will fail at this a lot. I will continue to try and not eat carbs, but if you see me hell bent on a box of wheat thins, you might want to move out of the way. I am sure I will learn more things, but you know what, Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke!
What did the other ladies learn? Check them out at: Froggie, Momarock, and Merrylandgirl
**Motto credit goes to my very fist boss out of Grad school. It was her family's motto, and we stole it. It was too freakin' awesome to not take. But, I like to give credit where credit it due.
I love that motto! It's a good one to live by! There's only so much you can do- and it's too hard to please everyone, that's for sure. Great post!
ReplyDeleteSorry you had to deal with such difficult relatives. And I wasn't trying to guilt trip you at all. As I mentioned, I've been more laid back about when posts go up. I appreciate your consideration though! I enjoy reading your posts and you came up with some really interesting topics this year.
ReplyDeleteI love Wheat Thins but I usually have to get the generic kind because the main brand isn't Kosher and the Kosher brand is super expensive for a box of crackers! So thankful for Target!
Way to go on ditching corn syrup. Passover should be easy for you. :)